I'm tired, I'm torn....I'm blessed

I'm tired. Lately, just tired. Working full time. Getting up early to go to work so I can be home to meet the bus. Meet the bus, snack, clean out backpacks and lunch boxes. Some days try to fit in a workout, do dinner, showers/baths bedtime.

I'm tired.

Light cleaning of the house during the week and maintain by keeping picked-up, our laundry during the week, the girls laundry on the weekend and deeper cleaning on the weekend. Don't get me started on the dog:)

I'm tired.

PTO meetings, chairing school events, Co-leading Ainsley's Daisy troop, taking Kaylee to her Brownie activities, getting girls to tumbling class. Soon dance class will start too.

I'm tired.

Seeing all of the political posts and cartoons, listening to commentary and speeches. Exhausting!

Seeing people at the store using their Link cards to buy high priced items and junk food and then using their money to buy the all important alcohol and cigarettes. Annoyed!

Listening to people blame their life choices on others and not taking accountability. Annoyed, again!

Why so annoyed? Because I'm tired. I'm working and doing the best to keep a good life balance. Cooking healthy meals for my children, keeping them on routines and teaching them things like accountability. I've worked hard to get a good education, I've overcome obstacles in my life and although I still have things I personally battle that have been done and over for many years now I am responsible for my choices and my actions. I'm doing the needed things to support my family and yet each paycheck money is removed to help pay for someone else. Not to say that all of those receiving assistance are not worthy and shouldn't be helped but on some days it's more than I can take.

This leaves me torn. I'm torn because I believe in helping others. We are involved in St. Jude, we support cancer and autism and many other great programs and organizations. We donate canned goods, toys, clothes and other items of needs to local organizations. So I'm torn at times when I see people utilizing services that have been afforded to them.

I'm blessed. I'm blessed because of all, well most, of the reasons I'm tired. I'm blessed because I have a house to clean and healthy children to take care of. I'm blessed because they have a great school I can be involved with and a job that makes it very easy for me to be involved and allow me flexibility to be here when they get home from school, and Brad to be here to get them on the bus, and to be home with them when they are sick.

I'm blessed because I've had parents who afforded me the opportunity to go to school and get a good education. They supported and encouraged that in my life.

I'm blessed that my girls are willing to help me with chores by clearing the table, help doing dishes, cleaning their rooms and putting their clothes away. I'm blessed that they only complain sometimes and that they feel pride in helping and accomplishing things. I'm blessed that they enjoy school and have nice friends.

When all is said and done I love my life and I love my family. The three people that I start and end each day with, and even the dog too:), make it a VERY happy and blessed life.

I know in my heart of hearts my struggles are nothing compared to what others are going through. So even when I'm tired, and feeling torn, I try to put things in perspective, sometimes it's easier to do this than others, and remind myself of how blessed I am.